Adoption in the UK seems very different to in America. We don’t have open adoption at all, 99% of children are removed for their own safety. For us this brought on a whole new set of worries and anxiety about keeping Cubs identity secure.
For all those considering adoption I would 100% recommend it. I never ever thought I would be ok with not being a birth parent. That longing for a bump and all those early days as a birth parent. The early bonding, seeing your baby resemble you and your partner. I thought all of those ‘needs’ would be with me forever. I can safely, hand on my heart say that I wouldn’t change Cub for the world. I will fight for him every day of his life, I am his Mummy and I always will be. He is my world and I feel so so lucky and honoured that he is mine. Forever. Yes it’s though, but being a parent is. The early settling in stages I found hard (also the social workers constant visits kept reminding you that you weren’t a ‘normal’ birth family) but now a year in I genuinely forget that I didn’t give birth to him. Adoption is part of his story. It’s not his whole story. It will be something I encourage him to be proud of and thankful for and something I will continue to promote.
Maybe one day I will get the courage to write a blog about our experiences too.
Well done Sarah for putting your heart on your sleeve and letting us in.
I look forward to hearing your journey.
]]>I totally resonate with your post Sarah! Despite the fact that I say to myself “people who come over to my house, are just going to accept me for me, not my mess and chaos”, I still fall into the big fat comparison LIE of telling myself “I wish I were more like ‘her’ (whoever she may be that day)”. It never stops. The wanting and the wishing to have a clean and tidy company ready at anytime house, having dinner planned before six oclock, and to be in the van five minutes before we need to leave – calm cool, collected, having forgotten nothing! It’s overwhelming and it feels lonely! I feel like I’m the only mom who doesn’t have it together.
Thank you for sharing your struggles and starting the conversation that I think most moms can relate too!
]]>For my own brain, I wish there was a more clear-cut mama-time vs. work-time. It gets pretty blurry and I find the transition hard, but also realize we’re lucky to have all these things to balance.
Thanks for sharing, Lindy!
]]>I’ve had an Etsy shop for 7 years and I understand your pain. Currently I juggle 3 jobs (3 of which are Etsy based) plus staying home full time with my kids. I feel guilty all the time that I’m not doing enough with them and that I’m missing things but the reality is when I wasn’t working I was miserable. I need both to be a happy fulfilled person and I think my kids and I are better for it. I like that my kids see me working and being creative and I try and make a conscious effort to stop and have quality time especially on weekends when my husband is home too.
Don’t even get me started on housework and the kids schedules. I spend a good portion of my days trying to organize the mass amount of stuff in our house as well as juggle the kids schedules. With 3 kids, 2 of which are in school and all of them with different interests and activities it’s a full time job just keeping on top of all that! It’s definitely a struggle, you are not alone and you would be greatly missed if you “closed up shop” but I do understand fully what you’re saying! It’s hard and each day is totally different from the last. Like I said, I feel your pain and if you ever need to send me a message that just says “Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!” I’ll totally get it! : )
Thanks for sharing this!
Lindy
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